It Happens Sometimes

It happens sometimes.

You do all the things! 

ALL. THE. THINGS.

You prepare in all the ways.

You connect with your growing belly.

You love on your partner. 

You welcome the labor and birth.

You have the best team.

You do everything right. 

And yet still, STILL, you do not get your homebirth with your midwife.

You labor for 3 days.

3 days of contractions.

3 days of emotions.

3 days of anticipation.

3 days of VERY hard work without a break.

And at the end of that third day, you do not meet your baby at home.

Sometimes we are given the cards we are given without rhyme or reason.

And its painful.

Just as painful as the 3 days of labor.

And it’s ok to mourn your birth.

It’s ok to love on your baby while also

loathing your experience.

It happens sometimes.

And at the end of day 3 postpartum

when your milk flows and the tears flow

It is also ok to look back on your unexpected hospital birth with unexpected Joy.

And to feel guilty about the unexpected joy. 

It is ourselves as mothers.